Finish my dinner, sitting infront my messy desk.. Not feeling like wanna study.. I staring at my phone.. Try to remember every single msg that my dear had send me.. Took up my phone, open inbox.. N i began to read every msg tat he'd send me.. Once again, i feel the warmth, feel the care, the love.. Soon, i've forgotten those harmful words from my family that's enuff to kill me.. Babe, u'd accompanied me go through every tough moments.. Thanks.. thanks for your caring.. thanks for the silence when we argue.. thanks for every thing..

I've been full of tears, pains, scars.. I used to be worried, disappointed, insecure.. But u cured the pain, and scars recovered, I'm trying to be stronger and stronger.. It can be proof that i din cry for this time. It's just because i knew.. I knew every thing will be alright.. U lend ur ears to me when i need some1 to talk with, u lend ur shoulder for me when i feel like wanna cry, u calm me down when i panic like hell, u stand behind me when i'm gonna to crumble.. and your sweet talks when i was angry.. I'm so glad to be with you.. You are the one i can rely on.. N i'll always remember what have u taught me.. Always remember what's happy, always forget what unhappy = ) S.M.I.L.E.

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很快地。。一个礼拜的假期。。就这样的结束了。。这一个礼拜。。我告诉自己要努力。。可是我失败了。。一个礼拜的时间。。对我而言。。好像过了一百年。。感觉很多事情都冲着我而来。。感觉很重。。这种感觉。。两年前我也体会过。。常常回想起两年前的自己。。到底是坚强。。还是脆弱得连面对的勇气也没有？那一年。。我到底是怎么熬过去的呢？当时我选择沉默。。然而现在也一样。。不同点是。。现在的沉默是以笑带过。。那也意味着我已经麻了。。从失望到有希望，希望到失望。。我的心也快要掉下来了。。那种感觉不是每个人都能了解的。。纵使是身边的亲人朋友。。最可悲的是。。当最伤心的时候。。竟然一个朋友也不在身边。。不是电话打不通。。就是没有接电话。。想起昔日一起欢笑的日子和这个情况相比。。确实有点荒谬。。可却是事实。。

很多朋友告诉我。。我的思绪很难捉摸。。我都只是敷衍的答了一句。。其实我心里也是在思考同一样的问题。。我也搞不懂自己想什么。。

我知道，我需要的是一丁点的勇气我就能坦然面对一切。。可是我就偏偏连那一丁点的勇气也拿不出来。。我没有闪躲，亦没有逃避。只是措手不及。。来不及反应只好保持沉默。沉默思考了许久，没想到该怎么办，也只好继续沉默。只是没有想到沉默了那么久。。能肯定的是这苦带有一丝甜。。可那一丝甜味，促使我尝清楚了那苦有多么的苦。理智点想想。。吃得苦中苦，方为人上人。。苦尽甘会来。。可是再想想。。如果人人都这么想的话，自杀率就不会那么高啦。。人能理智多久呢？总有一天也会懦弱下来的。。再理智的人也会有彷徨无助，崩溃的时候。。而且理智的人是尝得最清楚苦是怎么样的哪一个。。所以人理智也不是一件事。。

I love this song....

Just Ignore me.. I'm too bored~

Heeeeeeeeeeeeeee = D
Guess what i've done??
LOL~
I was too bored during this morning~
N feel like dun1 to study~
So~ I played with my fake lashes =' )
Actually this is natural type of fake lashes~
I combined them together~
N looks like this.....................

Whoooooooooooooopsssss...
Big dark circles~ LOL~
I looks so stupid n retarded~ I noe~ LOL~
Later go pasar malam with hubby, Christine & her hunbby=' )
So happy n excited now ^^

Do u miss My daughther -- Nana???

Hello ~ Long time no see^^
I'm Nana^^ Did u miss me?? I guess u did ^^
Muackz~~~ TQ~ TQ~

I S.M.I.L.E when u say u miss me~

I C.R.Y when u said u dun miss me t.t
But back to reality~
It is not worth to cry for some people or any bad thing~
If you think it's not your fault~ Pls~ Dun cry~
Crying is a way for us to release our feelings~
Not a tool to let others sympathize on you~
If u think it works~Keep it on~
But I'm sure I'm not the one who sympathize on you~
I found It's hard to talk with you~
It's enuff~ How sad am I when i heard u say tat~

Frenz~ Especially my mum= )
Dun ask me who am i talking after viewing this post~
If u dun wish to see me get piss off~
I just wanna to release my feeling by writing blog as I dun hav anyone to tell~

Shopping with sis =' )

Today............... Wake up at 9 am.....Reluctantly....
Coz i promise my sis to accompany her to go bintang...
So..........................
Actually~ I still very sleepy~ T.T
While i accompany my sis go Lowyat~
I saw this......
And I remember that i wanna to buy memory card for my pink baby N yrs ago~
So i bought this ^^ Juz for RM30 smt only~
Sis said she want to buy shirts~
So i accompany her.... WALK to Pavilion~
N i bought this when my sis is still in fitting room tried on her shirts~
^^
Blue leggings~
I dunnoe it can match which clothes of mine~
I bought it juz bcoz i like the colour~
I believe i can find a clothe to match it =' )
I'm using Faceshop's sun block~
But it's a bit oily when i apply on my face~
I dun like the feeling~
So i change brand...
But i think i bought wrong aldy~
This is too watery~
Eeeeeee............
Worst than before~
After that~
We bought a roll of French roll for my dad n we went home~
Happy Shopping Day =' )

28/08/10 Family dinner

Last Saturday I have a family dinner at KLCC convention center~
Erm~ Not bad lar~
All Malay food~
I like the Kari seafood & the Marsh Mellow Ice-Cream~
Owh~ My favourite Marsh Mellow^^ Yum yum= )
^^ Camwhore"ing" while waiting my sis~ LOL~

And we reach thr around 8 p.m.~
YesSsSsSs..... START^^
This is the scene.............
I din take photos of the food coz i'm too hungry and cannot wait!!!

The waiter serve this to us after our meal~
This is a fruit from Terengganu which you couldn't found in KL~
But....................... It taste............. Euch..........
I vomit it out T.T

After the dinner~ It's around 9.30~ All my relatives went home aldy~
Haih~ Still so early~
My sis n I walk around n see got anything else can buy for my DAD for his birthday~
N lastly...........
We decided to bought this........
Teehee^^
We wrote lotza thins inside~
But i din show here lar~
It's confidential~LOL~ =' )

Happy Birthday DAD =' )
We love you ^^

*My sis refused to take photo with me........Too bad....*

Shakira~She's so beautiful =' )

Finally.................

Finally~ Everything is over~
I means test~ Assignments.....
AND Tommorrow is the beginning of holiday ^^
Yippie^^ Clap clap ^^
Tonight will be a good good night~

BUT....... I promise myself~
Before i enjoy my holiday~
I should finish my psychology research first~
arghhhhh....... =' 0
Too bad~ I hate to write report~
Especially those must write about theories~
I feel like wanna bang my head to the wall and kill myself~
N....... I hate the 'process' of doing research~
Like find n read articles, summarize, combine, add own opinion, and so on~
N i hate...................
Erm~ In conclusion, I hate to do research~~ t.t
No matter how~ I got no choice~
I have to do it!
Yeah! Just do it!
Pray for me & wish me good luck for my research T.T
Got to go, Bye~ =' )

Take this photo few days ago~
But this is the best expression to describe my mood now~
MOODY & EXHAUSTED