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日本--青木原树海

2010-12-28T02:24:00.000-08:00

青木原是位於日本富士山西北側山麓的一个地区，横跨山梨县富士河口湖町与鸣泽村，周围有西湖、精进湖与本栖湖等堰塞湖。

青木原为熔岩台地地形，標高约介於920公尺～1300公尺之间，面积约有3000公顷。这是在很久以前已开始逐渐形成原始森林，十分浓密，從高处俯瞰宛如一大片由树木所构成的树海。因为青木原是日本最著名的树海，所以在日本「树海」一词也成为青木原的代名詞。

青木因为邻近的富士山、富士五湖，所以也发展成为著名的观光景點，森林谷步道及营营地等公共设施的整备颇為齐全。但正因为交通便利又兼具高度隐密的特点，许多日本人选择在这里自杀，因此青木原也是日本数一数二的自杀圣地之一，並且产生许多绘声绘影的灵异传说。

在搜索自杀森林时~我无意中发现了一篇文章~令我半信半疑~

故事是这样的~~~

[青木原樹海]，乍聽之下，一個十分優美的名字，但是，對日本稍有認識的朋友，都知道這是日本一處非常著名的自殺地點。每年十月，當地警方，都會聯同其他救援隊伍，組織大規模搜索隊，進入樹海搜尋自殺者的屍體。單在2002年，當地就發現了76具屍體，當然，實際數字可能遠高於此。說了大半天。為的甚麼? 就是想介紹我在[青木原樹海] 內所渡過「短短數十分鐘」的經歷。

大約三年半前 (即02年初)，我和另外三位同事受派往東京的總公司工作，經過半年時間，那project 終告完成，公司為了獎勵我們，便給予我們整個部門額外三個星期的大假，和一筆為數可觀的獎金給我們作为花費。於是，我們就展開了在東京的瘋狂購物，飲食和觀光。

東京實在是一個十分迷人的城市，但是，再美好的事物，也終會有令人生厭的一天。經過十多天吃喝玩樂後，我們開始感到有些沉悶，麻木了。也十分之勞累。動極思靜之下，遂決定找一處遠離人煙的地方，真真正正地休息一下。

這天，我們一行六人，包括我們四人，和另兩位日本同事。驅車進入富士山區。開始了我們富士山之旅。富士五湖中，西湖是比較清幽的一個湖，而旁邊就是鼎鼎大名，充滿神秘色彩的[青木原樹海]。這裡雖然缺少了多姿多采的水上活動，但卻正正符合我們休養生息的目的。

我們租住了一間民宿，屋主是一對年老夫婦，這對夫婦，十分好客和健談，不要小看他們長居於鄉巴，不論天文地理，古今中外，都難不倒他們，所識資訊，可能比你我還多。

那里雖不至於下雪，但晚上的氣溫，也是十分之寒冷，晩飯後，老頭子端出日式甜品給我們一起享用，上面再放了一些乾花粉，賣相很美麗。清香撲鼻。我們和老夫婦就如家人一樣，閒話家常，說著說著，也就不覺得寒冷了。這一夜，很容易渡過了。

第二天的晚上，我們再次與老夫婦圍爐談天，這夜的話題，終於扯到了[青木原樹海] 來了。故事到此，正式進入主題，而我，必須要先介紹一下我們幾人，並加上稱號，否則各位再看下去，恐怕會十分之混亂。

首先是細文和陳仔，他倆都是極端堅信的基督徒。幾乎可以歸納為原教旨主意者。接著是我們的主管，龍哥，為人溫文敦厚，風度偏偏。公司女同事的夢中情人。然後是我，一個不太虔誠的佛教徒。還有兩位日籍同事，和田先生和小松先生。

提到了[青木原樹海] ，老頭子見我們這般有興趣，便說了很多有關於樹海的傳說給我們知道。這些傳說，有的棲美，驚慄，也有一些是感人的。

聽完一大堆傳說之後，各人不單不覺得恐怖，相反，還對樹海產生不同程度的興趣。首先發難的，是細文和陳仔，基於其信仰的關係，對於天下間任何鬼神之說，他們從來都只是嗤之以鼻，今次也不例外。他倆竟然異口同聲提出要到[青木原樹海] !

老頭子認定是自己口沒遮攔，惟恐闖出了禍來，所以極力勸阻。后来老頭見各人意志已決，知道再也阻止不了。便只好轉而千叮萬囑地，提醒我們注意安全。

翌日大清早，老頭子替我們向當地的觀光局和警署打了招呼，並堅持要送我們出發。觀光局在樹海的入口設有辦事處，近年當地辨了很多不同類型的本地旅遊團，有參觀自然生態的、有參觀地形奇景的、有參觀附近神社的、亦有很多私人組成到來參觀自殺地點的探險隊。每天早上，他們都會齊集在這觀光辦事處的小屋外等待出發，而我們亦選擇以這裡作為我們的出發點。而觀光局也特別委派了一位導遊替我們領路。導遊是個三十多歲的小伙子。雖然年紀輕輕，卻對此地區瞭如指掌。也難怪，他在此當導遊已經五年，進出樹海不下數百次。當然熟悉了。

手表指著九時正，我們別過老頭子和觀光辦事處的職員，正式踏進這片充滿神秘色彩的地方

樹海給我的第一個印象，就是清幽脫俗，沿路上只覺鳥語花香，絲毫沒有陰森的感覺。路途上，我們也不寂寞，因為在同一時間，就有兩三個本地旅行團和我們一起行進。這裡其實與世界上其它地方的大型原始森林並沒有兩樣，惟一不同之處，就是此地蘊藏豐富的磁鐵礦，會令指南針失靈，再加上古木蔽天，進入林中，很容易失去方向感而導致意外的發生。早前那本可惡的自殺手冊，正是利用此點，教人到這裡輕生，其心也太可誅。

我們一行人跟隨大伙兒行進了差不多一個小時，逐漸覺得有點兒喧鬧，於是請求導遊另抄小路，避開那些旅行團，尋幽探勝去也。起初，導遊是不答允的，可是到了後來，連導遊也忍受不了那邦人的煩氣，到了下一分岔路口時，就決定與那些人分道揚鑣，選擇了另一條小路繼續前進。

據說，這條小徑，除了一些尋幽探秘的探險隊進入之外，一般的遊人絕少踏足，所以導遊千叮萬囑我們，必須一起行動，不能亂闖，免生意外。

進入小徑後，景觀比起剛才的漫步道（郊遊徑）明顯來得荒涼。樹林之內更隨處可見一些勸人不要自殺的告示牌和郵箱，是由當地警方和防止自殺會豎立的，蕭瑟的氣氛，更與外面截然不同。

我們愈向前走，樹木愈茂密，路面便愈發昏暗，地上盤根錯節，野草叢生，加上石山的高低不平，小徑開始模糊難辨，若非有導遊的帶領，根本不可能找到路途前進。

「嘩！」突然間龍哥大叫一聲。眾人循著他的眼神向左方望去，見到一條大麻繩掛在樹丫上。。。

「不用緊張！慢慢你們便會習慣，這些東西在樹海裡並不罕見。」導遊微笑著說。

可是我們幾人就不可能再保持平和的心境了，畢竟都是些令人心寒的東西。

「為甚麼不派人清理？」陳仔問道。

「由於樹海幅員遼闊，加上人煙稀少，所以，除了在漫步道附近和一些旅遊熱點有專人清潔之外，基本上是沒有人去清理，間中有些志願團體，會發動青少年到此檢拾垃圾，不過基於安全的考慮，活動的區域也不會太大。」導遊繼續說：「當你愈深入樹海，便愈容易發現這些繩索、雜物之類嚇人的東西。」

「照道理那些搜索人員發現屍體時，也應該一併清走死者的遺物吧！」我追問。

「也不一定是遺物，有時那些想自殺的人，在最後關頭，醒悟過來，打消自殺的念頭，就會離開，而留下這些物件。幸運的，可以走出樹海，檢回生命，只不過，更多的是迷失在樹海之中，死在別處而已。有時候，屍體會受到野狗的咬啃，骸骨雜物遍佈四周，搜索人員發現屍體之後，首要工作是移走屍體，但是未必能夠兼顧散佈現場的物件。」導遊答道。

正如導遊所說，我們在這林中走動的時候，除了四處可見回頭是岸的告示牌之外，細心一點，隨時可以在草叢中發現到一些細小物件，最常見的，是啤酒罐、水樽等，當然，那些可能只是旅遊人士棄置於此的廢物，但是，如果旁邊還散佈著安眠藥、自殺手冊、錢包、眼鏡、鞋襪．．．等等的東西，相信你不會再懷疑那只是遊人棄置的垃圾了。

走着走着，時間很容易渡過，不經不覺，已屆中午時份，導遊建議我們先吃點東西，休息一會，才繼續行程。眾人找了一個較為開揚的地方，從背包中拿出乾糧和食水，席地而坐，享用起我們的「豐富」午餐來了。

在樹海裡野餐，是一趟很奇特而難忘的經歷，我們來西湖之前，就是做夢也不曾想過的。環顧四周寂靜而蒼涼的景像，不期然產生一種疑幻似真的感覺。若然一個人隻身獨處於這個孤寂昏暗的環境中，加上其高山氣候，空氣稀薄所影響，很容易便會失去方向感，而迷失於樹海之中。幸好我們有幾個人，加上有導遊在旁，所以也十分放心。

半小時後，我們繼續踏上『征途』，導遊準備帶我們從另一路徑走出樹海，這條路雖然比較崎嶇，但也較短，所以，如無意外，日落前，一定可以返回出發地點。

一行人爬上了一個山坡，就在這時，導遊突然間流露出一個奇怪的表情。他側著頭傾聽了好一會，向我們說：「奇怪，你們有沒有聽到甚麼特別的聲音？」

我盡能力，亦只能聽到風吹樹葉的聲音。兩位日藉同事卻異口同聲地回應說：「有呀，像是一些手鼓和尺八（日本笛）的音樂。」不知是否香港的噪音太厲害，以致我們的聽覺失靈，幾個香港人，就是聽不到有甚麼音樂聲！

導遊自言自語地說：「奇怪了，這個地方，何以會有音樂聲？」過了一會，和田先生指著遠處下方的樹叢說：「看！」我們從樹木的隙縫中，可以看到那堆樹木下面有些鮮艷的顏色在掩映著，再仔細看，可以見到有人在樹下面行走。這時，我們幾個香港人，也漸漸聽到那些音樂聲，那是一些傳統的日本音樂，類似舉行祭典時所奏的音樂一樣。

除了導遊之外，我們六人心裡都有點興奮雀躍，進入樹海半天，聽到的，都是大自然的聲音，這時，能夠聽見這些熱鬧悅耳的旋律，自然很容易就引起共鳴了。只有導遊，卻表現得有點緊張，他說：「照我所知，這幾天都沒有節慶活動舉行，即使有，也不會在這深山野嶺進行，未清楚他們身份來歷之前，還是少招惹為妙！」

「而且，他們行進的速度很快，相信很快就會經過我們這裡，我看，大家還是避一避，找些樹木掩護一下，不要和他們接觸，免招麻煩。」聽導遊這麼說，大伙兒惟有照做，就走到樹叢後面躲起來了

果然，不消一刻鐘，那些人已經來到我們附近，眾人不敢作聲，從樹叢看出去，這隊人，一共有十二人，全部都是年輕女性，作同一服飾打扮，都是穿著藍}底橙色碎花的和服，前後各有四人，手執各式樂器，中間四人，則抬著一座像是小型祭壇的東西，「祭壇」的外形打造成一座富士山的模樣，她們掛著歡欣的臉容，一路吹奏，踏著舞步，列隊前行。

這山坡其實不算易走，剛才我們上山的時候，各人都氣喘如牛，但觀乎她們的步履輕快，亳無倦容，著實令我們自愧不如。

很快，這些少女就從我們的面前經過，細看她們的樣貌，全都眉清目秀，即使不能稱為絕色，卻也是叫人眼前一亮的美女啊！這情景令我心中不禁浮現出電影『倩女幽魂』裡，小倩出場的鏡頭來。

隊伍逐漸遠離我們，導遊亦鬆了一口氣，正當各人準備返回路上之際，龍哥卻猛然跳了起來，衝上前追向隊伍，他旁邊的陳仔想阻也阻止不了。龍哥追過了隊伍，伸開手欲截停那些少女，但是少女們無動於衷，好像看不見人一樣，繼續前進，眼看就要撞上了，龍哥不得不閃身避開，但最終還是被其中一人碰了一下，頓時失去重心，跌倒地上。

我們上前準備扶起龍哥，初時，他在地上呆了一呆，接著，霍地站了起來，甩開我們，口中斥喝著，撲前又向那些少女追去。一向溫文的龍哥，這刻竟然變得如此激動，從他充滿著怒火的眼光便可感覺得到。

眾人被這突如其來的情況，弄個措手不及，嚇了一跳，旋即不敢怠慢，從後追趕上去。

大家可以想像一下：在這人跡罕至的樹林中，前面一批少女神色自若地，踏著舞步輕鬆前進；中間一個男人怒氣沖沖地追趕；緊接著一班大男人，滿頭大汗，拼命地跟隨其後，這三組神情各異的人，是構成了一幅何等詭異的畫面！

未知是否我們走不慣山路罷，說也奇怪，任憑}我們幾個人如何拚命追趕，卻始終不能追上前面的隊伍，我們跑上跑下的跑了差不多一整個小時，少女們和龍哥依然能夠保持速度在前面走著，而我們幾人卻已經筋疲力竭，差點兒就要虛脫而死了。

天色開始昏暗，樹海內的光線逐漸微弱，但前面的人仍未有停下的跡象。眼見龍哥把我們愈拋愈遠，若情況繼續下去的話，很快就會消失於我們視線之外了，他的安危實在堪虞，眾人心裡焦急萬分。

當各人無計可施之際，前面斜坡旁有一塊巨石，導遊靈機一閃，他突然轉向，跳到這塊巨石之上，居高臨下，借勢飛身撲向龍哥。『蓬』的一聲，兩人碰在一起，倒在地上翻滾了十多轉，終於在廿多碼之外停下。這時，眾人趕至，不由分說，也一起撲到龍哥身上，把他壓著，任憑}他如何咆哮和掙扎，也不敢稍動。直至音樂聲遠去，龍哥停止了反抗，我們聽到他開始正常喘氣的聲音，才敢挪開。

各人回過氣來，開始你一言，我一語地責罵起龍哥來了；數分鐘後，各人開始察覺到事情不妙，望向導遊。只見他眉頭深鎖，不發一言，眾人即時閉咀，頓時間鴉雀無聲，導遊開始說話：「剛才我們追趕的時候，已經浪費了太多時間，現在也不早了，很快便會日落，恐怕我們今晚難以走出樹海了！」

「難道我們今晚要在這裡過夜？」細文和我異口同聲地問道。

「是！」導遊回答。

山區的黑夜來得特別快，不多久，剛才依稀可辨的山徑，現在已經籠罩在一片漆黑之中，根本不適宜再走動，惟有等天亮再算罷。今晚要在樹海裡頭過夜，已成定局。不過我不太害怕，我對導遊仍然滿有信心，始終是經驗導遊嘛。
樹林內沒有任何燈光，甚至連星月的光輝也被樹蔭所遮擋，幸好各人隨身帶備了照明工具，此刻才不至於摸黑渡過。

各人折騰了半天之後，都已經疲累不堪，也沒有心情再多說話，坐下來，便拿出身上僅餘的乾糧和食水充饑。甫一坐定，立即感受到富士山的嚴寒，這時，大概只有攝氏五至六度吧！

這一晚，是我人生中最難度過的一夜。啊！不只是我，其他人也是一樣：沒有熱食、熱水、禦寒衣物不足（除了一人，就是我們的導遊，因為他有一個暖手包，各人只有羨慕的份兒）、也沒有睡袋、營帳等，再加上疲倦、恐懼．．．實在難熬。各人牙關打顫、緊抱雙手，瑟縮坐著。甚麼叫做饑寒交迫？

「咦，龍哥，剛才你要截停那班少女，究竟有何用意？」我好奇地問。

「對呀，你在公司已經整天被美女重重包圍，還要這麼急色，也不看看大環境！」陳仔開始埋怨了。

「我．．．不知道。初時，不知哪裡來的念頭，要去截停她們，我也說不出為甚麼要這麼做。到了後來，被那少女撞倒，忽然心中一團怒火升起，只覺得非要追到她們不可，接著下來，我迷迷糊糊的，只管向前追，我不知為何會這樣，也控制不到自己停下來．．．真的對不起。」龍哥抓著頭，歉疚地說。

「你倒是跑得很自在，看你臉不紅、氣不喘的，難為我們跟著你，差點兒氣也絕了。若非一場同事，我們才不管你哩！」陳仔窮追猛打。

「我們也不應怪龍哥，今天的事，實在來得相當怪異，我在此地區長大，亦從未見過這種形式的巡遊，更怪的是，任我們幾個人怎樣跑，也跑不過那些少女，這就更顯得有點邪門了！」導遊看不過眼地說。

聽完導遊的說話，心中一股寒意驟然而生，使我們冷上加冷。看一看錶，才不過八時多。慘！如何渡過漫漫長夜．．．

雖然我們已經亮起了手中所有的照明工具，但是，只要離開十碼之外，就已經伸手不見五指了，黑夜，像是能夠吞噬一切物件的魔君，無處不在。

寒冷氣溫冷得令人身體發抖，為了保存體温，眾人背靠背地坐在一起。我們分成兩組輪流休息，而我、陳仔和細文就負責上半夜的看守工作。

初時我們隨意找些話題打發時間，直至後來他兩人扯到了宗教問題，由於彼此的信仰不同，我就不再參與，我雙眼望著面前空洞洞的黑夜，腦海想著旅館的高床暖枕。雖然雙眼仍然睜著，可是神智卻已迷糊不清，半睡半醒。

寂靜中，忽然間『擦，擦，擦！』的響了幾下，像是有人走近的聲音，令人毛骨悚然。我們三人都很緊張，心中一慄，立刻拿起電筒照向聲音發出的方向，只見一棵樹下有兩點小小的綠色的光芒，一閃一閃的，被我們照了幾下之後，向旁邊一閃就不見了。

「嚇我一跳，原來是小動物。」驚魂甫定之後，細文輕聲地說。

各人舒一口氣。在這個連昆蟲也躲起來冬眠的時節，如此嚴寒的夜裡，居然還有小動物在樹海裡出沒，莫非牠們也是『搵食艱難』？不過，想起剛才還真的給牠嚇至魂飛魄散呢！我心裡暗暗誦唸著心經以壯膽色。

好不容易，才能等到換班的時間，半夜兩點鐘，導遊的鬧錶響起，終於輪到我休息啦！實在是太疲乏之故，在極度寒冷和坐著的姿態下，也不消三分鐘，就已經進入夢鄉！

我睡得很酣，由於手腳已經凍至差不多失去了知覺，就變得不再覺凍了，所以就睡得更加舒服，怪不得別人說，在冰天雪地中，會一睡不起，原來是真的！

朦朧中，又再傳來『擦，擦，擦！』的聲音。心想，又是那些小動物！不自覺地咒罵：『不要吵！該死的畜牲，又來騷擾我。』可是，聲音不但沒有停止，更愈演愈烈。

終於忍無可忍，極不情願下，睜眼一看，一股強烈的光線射入眼底。其實光線並非真的強烈，只不過是從極度黑暗之中，過渡到稍為光亮的環境時，感覺很強烈而已。

我定神一看，哦，原來已經天亮了，看看手錶，早上八時多了。再環顧四周，陳仔和細文，和我一樣，也是剛剛被吵醒；龍哥和小松先生站在我們的旁邊，而導遊和和田先生，正從前方一條小路走出來，原來『擦擦』的聲響，正是他們行走時發出來的。他們身上繫著布帶，布帶的一頭，縛在附近一棵樹幹上。

相較起黑夜裡的荒涼和冷漠，浸潤在晨光中的樹海，就顯得格外溫柔可愛；嚴寒的氣溫，亦稍為緩和，我拿起了相機，已經錯過了樹海的日出，決不能再錯過樹海的晨曦啊！

這時，和田先生與導遊已回到我們面前，看見他倆垂頭喪氣的表情，各人的心已然冷了一大截。

原來今早天一亮，他倆便已開始尋找路途離開，可惜他們先後從幾個方向出發，都是無功而還，直覺告訴我，我們已經迷失在樹海裡頭了！

「可惡，我們在附近走了幾圈，四周只見密麻麻的樹木，卻找不到出路。那些小路，兜兜轉轉，還是回到這兒。」和田先生沮喪地說。

「情況不妙，我們昨天走了很遠路程，此刻可能已置身於樹海比較深入的地方。」導遊說：「昨天追趕的時候，我來不及認路，這附近我從來不曾到過，實在也不知怎樣可以走出去！」

他繼續說：「唉！真可笑，身為導遊，居然迷失於自以為最熟悉的地方，我這幾年的導遊生涯，算是枉過了！」

導遊顯得無奈，我們聽了更加心亂如麻。我開始有點後悔參與這次旅程，想起香港的家人、同事和朋友，我實在還有很多心願未了、有很多說話未講，我真的不想迷失於樹海之中！我還未想死！可是，事已至此，再後悔，亦已無濟於事了。

小松先生取出手提電話，希望可以撥電話求救。但是，雖然電話上顯示訊號接收飽和，卻完全不能接通任何電訊系統。原來所有外來的電波已被山石樹木所阻隔，電話接收到的，只是大自然產生的電磁波，事實上，我們已經與世隔絕了！

「我們現在處於兩難的局面。」導遊說：「大家來商議一下，下一步，我們究竟是走，還是不走。」

「若是走，我們不知方向，有可能找到出路，但亦有可能會愈走愈入。若是不走，就只能寄望外面的人來救援了。」導遊繼續道。

大家討論之後，決定繼續前進，找尋出路。因為昨天我們已經走了一段很長的路程，即使救援隊伍到來，亦未必即時能找到我們，與其坐以待斃，倒不如博一博，更有可能逃出生天。

陳仔和細文閉上眼禱告了一會，一行人便隨意選了其中一條小路進發，沿途各人默默無言，只有導遊，仍邊走邊剪下布帶，用筆劃上記號，綁在路旁的當眼地方，以便必要時可以原路折返。但是大家心裡都知道，這些動作對於我們來說，大可不必，倘若今天之內，不能離開樹海的話，即使不餓死、渴死，夜裡也會抵受不住嚴寒而被冷死。

我們上高落低的走了個多小時，景觀並無多大變化，仍舊是密麻麻的樹木山石。經過兩天累積下來的疲累，我的手腳已開始不聽差遣，加上十多小時缺水缺糧，感覺上，身體已經變成一具只懂不斷向前走的行尸走肉。

終於，龍哥雙腿一軟，坐到地上，然後向我們說：「你們先走吧，我在這裡等救兵。」

「不行，你獨自留在這兒十分危險，還是一起走吧！」導遊說。

眾人力勸，龍哥就是不肯起來。

「這樣吧，既然龍哥已經決定了，那我留下來陪他，你們趕快替我們找救兵吧！」陳仔說完，就坐到龍哥身旁。此人雖然心直口快，卻還是有點義氣。

接著兩位日籍同事也表示要留下；導遊見狀說：「概然我們一起進來，現在也應當共同進退才對，我們一起留下來，你兩人意下如何，」導遊望向我和細文，細文點點頭，而我則直接坐了下來，以行動表示讚成。

就這樣，我們終止了這次的旅程。

眾人或坐或臥，都不再作聲，不再移動，默默地在等待著．．．

我躺在地上，看看四周，這時候，才察覺到，其實樹海裡頭的景色倒是十分優美，只不過之前我們無暇細看罷了！我閉上眼，任那柔和的陽光輕灑在臉上，一切都是那麼的溫暖、寧靜．．．

旅程真的就這樣終結了嗎？

當然不！否則各位也不會看到這篇故事了。

一陣『叮咚、叮咚』的聲音，把各人的神智從虛無縹緲的邊際，牽扯回現實的世界來。一個僧侶打扮、頭戴竹笠的人站在不遠處的路旁，容貌被竹笠遮掩著，正不停地轉動著手中的搖鼓，『叮咚』聲正是從這面搖鼓發出的。

這些『叮咚』聲像有神奇魔力似的，聽了之後，各人精神一振，求生之火重新燃起，當下不約而同的站了起來。那人見我們站起來，轉身就走。

導遊大聲呼喚著那人：「嗨！先生！先生！大師！大師！」

可是那人卻是充耳不聞，也不作回答，更是愈走愈遠。我們追上去，但是路途一轉，已經不見了他。

當我們四處找尋，不得要領之際，那個人卻又在不遠處出現。

「快跟著他，可能他懂得路途離開！」導遊對我們說完，便一個箭步，奔向那人，還邊走邊叫著他；眾人也忘記了身心的困倦，不知那裡來的精力，一起飛快地跟隨跑去，眼看就要追到的時候，又失去了他的蹤影，我們的希望又落空了。

『叮咚、叮咚！』我們循著聲音來源的方向望去，那人又站在遠處一個分岔路口，明顯地，那個人是刻意來引領我們前進的；雖然不知他到底是善意還是惡意，反正我們都已經豁出去了，就不用再諸多顧慮了。

我們向那路口走過去，那人進入了其中一條小徑，我們亦毫不猶豫地跟隨進去！與前兩次一樣，我們進入那條小徑之後，又看不見他了。

各人屏息靜氣，等待那人再出現，但是，這次我們等了近十分鐘，卻不見那人再出現。

「你們看這裡，是不是昨天到過的地方？」各人心裡正在發愁的時候，又聽見龍哥扯開嗓子地叫嚷。

他指向路旁一棵樹上掛著的繩索。呀！對了，這不正是我們昨天早上所見到的那條繩索！我還認得那樹丫呀，為甚麼方才我們不發覺呢？

「哈！我也給弄糊塗了！原來我們不經不覺已經回到樹海的邊緣，前面就是出口了。你們跟我來吧。」導遊興奮地說。

數分鐘後，我們再次踏足漫步道之上，大家心裡雀躍，其感覺就像從地獄返回人間一般，歡欣之情，非筆墨能形容。我們癱坐在地面上，只懂狂笑，久久不能起來．．．

休息了一刻鐘，龍哥再度開腔：「我提議，大家出去找點吃的，我來請客，當作陪罪。」各人當然支持，當下便一躍而起，向著漫步道入口處的小賣部進發，臨行前，我合十向著小徑入口拜了拜，多謝那位僧人帶引我們出來。

這一餐吃得很痛快，我們一行人，一下子「消滅」了三十個碗麵，只我自己已連吃了四碗，看得旁人目瞪口呆！

『充電』之後，人也精神多了，導遊告訴我們一個傳聞：盛傳有一位高僧在樹海裡面修行，附近的人間中見到他駕}車到市內的店舖購物，但他很少與人交談，所以不知道他的底蘊；買完東西後，他又會駕}車返回樹海，至於他住在樹海那裡，與及平日如何生活，就無人知曉了。我們今天遇到的僧人，會不會就是這位高僧呢？

啊呀！忘記了一點：大家猜猜究竟有多少救援人員到來搜索我們？

答案是．．．一個也沒有！

自我們走出樹海，重返漫步道開始，至到吃完了東西，我們都沒有碰到一個救援人員，也感覺不到任何異樣的氣氛，就像沒有事情發生一樣；難道所有人都忘記了我們？沒有人發覺我們失蹤？心裡在嘰咕著。

回到觀光局，時間還未到二時，有些職員出外午膳仍未回來，只見到辦事處的主任正在大啖吃著他的便當。

「主任，我們回來了。」導遊說。

「咦，你們這麼就快回來？」主任抬頭見到我們，望一望手錶，帶點詫異地說。這可惡的傢伙不但沒有慰問我們，還在幸災樂禍。

「快？難道你想我們永不回來？」我心裡暗忖著，有點兒不高興。

「警察來過了嗎？要不要我親身去一趟警署，通知他們銷案？」導遊接著問道。

「銷案？銷甚麼案呀？」主任嘻皮笑臉的說話，給我很虛偽的感覺，令我從心底裡討厭起來。

「難道我們失蹤一整夜，你們也沒有報案？」導遊也有點光火了。

「失蹤？你們才離開幾個小時，怎可以算是失蹤。」主任瞪大了原本細小的眼睛。

這時其他職員陸續回來，看見我們，也圍攏了過來。

「三島（導遊的名字），你有沒有帶他們看過甚麼景點？這麼早回來。」一個職員問道。

「我本想帶他們經過樹海裡的捷徑，從後走到蝙蝠洞，誰知．．．」導遊把事情經過一五一十地說出來。各人聽完，表情都怪怪的；主任的眼睛瞪得更加大，看起來有點硬滑稽。

「昨晚我們幾個人整夜在樹海中渡過，差點兒在裡頭人間蒸發，你們這時還在若無其事？」導遊抱怨地說。

「三島，你怎麼啦？昨晚你與太太在居酒屋共渡生晨，所有同事都在場，你忘記了嗎？」主任說。

「你們是不是被樹海裡面的氣氛嚇怕了，打退堂鼓？」剛才那職員轉而問我們。

「是呀，你們千里迢迢來到富士山，不多看看這裡的風景點，實在有點可惜！」另一人說。

「哈哈哈！三島，即使退出行程，也並非甚麼大不了的事，你幹嗎要替他們編造故事掩飾，你不覺得這故事很無稽嗎？」主任大笑。

「我．．．」導遊心裡憤怒，本想發作，但縱觀整件事，對他來說，並非甚麼光采的事情，惟有藉這機會，作為一個下台階，就把說到口的話，硬生生的吞回去。

我們幾人，亦為了顧全導遊的尊嚴，也不好意思多講說話了。

我們和導遊握手話別之後，乘坐觀光局安排的車輛返回旅館。一路上各人心裡納}悶，只因我們的性命曾經差一點，就斷送在剛才那班混蛋手上。

回到旅館，老太太見到我們，也是一臉錯愕地說：「咦，你們怎的這麼早就回來？老頭子送你們去觀光局之後，去了本栖湖那邊找朋友聊天，仍未回來。」

啊，又來了！為甚麼所有人的說話都是那麼奇怪？出了甚麼亂子呢？真是莫名其妙！不過，我們姑且把疑問暫時放下，現在最需要的，就是一張床喔。我洗了一個熱水浴，然後回到房中倒頭大睡，直至晚飯時份。

飯後，我們圍著暖暖的爐火，捧著甜絲絲的糖水，一邊收看電視播出的晚間新聞，突然間，電視上的畫面，令我們六個人同時間變得目瞪口呆！

令我們震驚的，並非節目的內容，而是螢光幕下面顯示出來的日期，竟然是昨天的日期。按常理，這是直播的節目，電視台是不大可能報錯日期的。經過接二連三的怪事──先是觀光局職員、繼而是老太太，最後到電視新聞，都把昨天的日期當作今天，的確也叫我們開始有點半信半疑了，我拿出我的手提電話一看，時間顯示沒有錯，可是日期的顯示，卻竟然也是昨天！

為了弄清事情的真相，我們各自撥電話向別人求證，而我則乾脆發了一掛長途電話給香港的家人，得到的，都是同一答案：日期並無跳升過，仍是我們出發到樹海的同一天。至此，我們再也不能不相信了。那麼，我們是否也錯怪了觀光局的職員？

事情變得更加離奇，難道我們所經歷的，全都是幻覺？可是，一切的感覺都是來得那麼真實：夜裡的嚴寒、衣服上的痕跡、身體的狀況，還有，我們拍下的照片．．．卻又使人不得不承認，碓實是有一些事情發生過。

再計一計時間，我們從出發到返回觀光局，如果當作是同一天的話，時間上只有五小時不夠，扣除了來回漫步道的兩個多小時、小賣部吃東西的個多小時、與及從樹海出來時的小休時間，我們實際在樹海裡逗留的時間（由漫步道進入小徑，至到重新踏足漫步道），只有三十分鐘！

事情是真是假，我們沒法子再去查證，只好把它定性為一件靈異事件。基本上，我們各人，包括那位導遊在內，均相信事情確實存在。

我們在西湖再待了兩晚，便正式告別富士山，結束這趟【青木原樹海神秘之旅】。

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CHECK OUT WHAT BERRY YOU ARE TODAY !

2010-12-16T04:42:00.000-08:00

My dear babez~
R u feeling bored?
NOthing to do at home?
Come!
Lets have some fun~
Lets CHECK OUT WHAT BERRY YOU ARE TODAY !

Owh~ I enjoy to listen to the music in this page~
It's cute! I've done the test~
And imma GEEKBerry~ lol!
Try it out! N compare with ur frenz=' )

Getting mad........

2010-12-12T03:42:00.000-08:00

Huh~~ Should have to release my anger!! Shit! Who she think she is? I respect her, and i called her sis~ I respect her I tolerate what ever she have done to me~ BUT this doesn't mean I'm an idiot and i will never be! Some more I'm not born to be her slave! I din mean I'm self-fish~ BUT HELLO~ Can her speak politely and said thanks when she ask ppl do things for her? And could she kindly does ppl a favor when needed? And she always complain and behave impolitely when ppl ask her to do them a favor~ N she expect ppl treat her nicely~ Oh girl~ Dun dream~ And i just cant stand for her childishness~ I start getting mad when she said she have done many things for me~ Gosh! Such a weird ppl~ And she's 6yrs older than me~ Haihzzz~ Jealous blind ur eyes~ Poor thing~

Did you meet ghost before???????

2010-12-10T06:50:00.000-08:00

Did you meet ghost before~
Let me tell you~
I did~ When i looks in the mirror~~
Aw!!!!! I saw a ghost!!!!
A ghost with red lips man!!! Damn scary...

Scary??? I also scared by myself....LOL~
But i still like my red lips^^ ngek ngek ngek.......
Bought this red lipstick with Ida Chen~
She said she will apply red colour lipstick and camwhore with me~
But i guess she forget aldy~~
Aiks~ This fella too bad~~
Broke her promise~ I angry aldy~ Hm...

My day

2010-12-08T06:48:00.000-08:00

It's another boring day~ Tried to make my day memorable and meaningful... BUT.................................. I failed to do so T.T Early in the morning, help mum to do housework~~~ Housework and HOUSEWORK..... A GOOD morning gone... Okay~ Not too bad~ At least I have been a good girl for a morning =' ) In the afternoon.. I plan to READ....... A big BUT again.. One of my besties called me... Have a nice phone talk with her for the afternoon~ Okay~Okay~ And then..... My dearest.... Hubby called... He said he's on the way back to JB.. He ask me t accompany him on phone.. Geeeeerrrrrrrrrrrrrr............ The whole evening GONE... And now..... I'm here to blog out =' ) A day............... GONE........... Okay~ Okay~ I believe tomorrow will be better =' ) S.M.I.L.E.

Let the books.. Lighten up my day (in my dreams). GoodNitez & SweetDreams everyone =' )

(Nice? Took this pic juz now ^^)

May my books rest in peace =' )

2010-12-03T11:11:00.000-08:00

翻来覆去就是睡不着。。
奇怪。。这几天都是这样。。
可能最近真是太情绪化了。。

姐姐的房间还亮着灯。。
我开了通往我们房间的门。。
看着她也一样坐在书桌前。。
边看着电脑边问我怎么还不睡。。

坐在书桌前对着电脑。。
往后望了一望。。
发现姐姐背对着我和我做同样的事情。。
距离式的背对背。。
感觉真的蛮不错。。
可是。。。。。。。。。。。
我真的真的很睏了。。
天气冷冷的就是没有办法睡得着。。
哎。。
凄凉的失眠之夜。。

2010-12-02T07:05:00.000-08:00

今天又是无聊的一天。
整天就一直对着电脑。。看戏，facebook。。
告诉自己不该这样浪费时间，该做点有意义的事情。。
可是能做什么呢？
看书？
我会睡着啦。。
找朋友聊天？
拿着电话。。发现。。知心的。。都没几个。。

我很希望。。
我的明天不会留白。。
可是在我脑海里。。
明天都是灰色的。。空空的。。
我也很希望。。我的昨天。。
充满彩色。。充满欢乐。。
可是昨天。。对我来说。。只是空白。。

到嘴边的话。。又吞回下去了。。
这些年。。让我内心丧失了平静。。
却又让我懂得了忍让。。
或许每个人的背后都有一个故事。。
以前对我而言这些故事都不重要。。
甚至不值一提。。

可是今天我又犹豫了。。
因为有人对我说。。
以前还没变得我是他的骄傲。。
因为我的存在让他深感欣慰。。
可是我又在想。。
这番话说完了以后。。回到了现实世界里。。
这对事情根本没有改变。。

保护或许也是伤害。。
也许这也称不上是什么伤害。。
但至少心里深处那刻痕是改变不了的事实。。
不是每个人都承受得到的。。

记得有人告诉我。。
可能是你看人的方式不一样而且太执着才会这样。。
我那时也在深思答案。。
可是今天我能够很肯定。。
不是这样的。。
执着以往。。让我看清楚了现在。。
许多他现在才领略到的。。
我早就知道了。。

傀儡般的生活。。
让我成长，让我成熟。。
可同时也让我发现。。
坚强其实是很简单的。。

不再流泪了。。
或许是说泪流光了。。
不再执着了。。
或许是说事情都不再重要了。。
多一个月。。只要再多一个月。。
全新的挑战。。生活。。
不会再被泪海淹没。。
为我下一段故事。。加油。。

Let's have fun ^^

2010-11-26T04:46:00.000-08:00

Oowh... It's another boring and lame day~ I'm nearly bang my head to the wall~ And i open my wardrobe~ I found i have lotza old~ baggy~ Shirts... As u can see.. There's lotza shirts behind me in the photo~ lol

Okay ~ I found this.............. In the "shirts sea"

And I start~ cut~ cut~ cut and cut~
And I combine a singlet with it...
Tada....

I looks so ghost without make up @.@

Add on a belt~ And a dress.... IS DONE^^
And you know why i din put a photo about the back side^^
It's too messy and.... Ugly~ lol
I tried my best~
But i still lmao when i look at the back side~
lol~ So i'm not gonna to post the photo~

We should Love ourselves more~

2010-11-18T07:23:00.000-08:00

Life is just too crazy for us~
Every day wake up~
We keep study~ work~ shopping in the holidayssss......
FAST FOOD~ DESERT~ Messed our diet up~

Sometimes, life is just to depressive and stress~

We will looks like this~
When we are meeting our deadlines~

We should love ourselves more and more and more~ Instead of torture ourselves~ Every time after exams or deadlines~ I'll extreme frustrated with my skin~ Acne.. pimple.. white heads.. blackheads.. All unwelcome guest visited me!! As a GIRL~ I should do something else to "rescue" my skin----D.I.Y facial mask at home =' )

There's lotza information about DIY mask in the internet~ But I'm fall in love with...............

1. ASPIRIN HONEY MASK

What you need is just a container, a tablet of uncoated aspirin, a lil bit water(few drops to let the aspirin dissolve), a spoon of honey.

Aspirin contain acetyl salicylic acid that it acts as an anti-inflammatory agent to heal acne. Besides, Aspirin acts more gently on the skin than benzoyl peroxide which is typically contain in purchased acne medications. It contains BHA (salicylic acid) which is also a powerful defoliant and it works well to unclog pores and help to clear up blemishes.

Honey is a great ingredient to heal acne too due to its antibacterial and anti-inflammatory properties. Besides, it is soothing and can be applied topically and taken internally.

Firstly, put a tablet of aspirin into ur container and put few drops of water into it. Wait one to two minutes to wait the aspirin dissolve. Stir well after the aspirin has dissolved. Then, put a spoon of honey into the mixture and stir well. Now, ur DIY mask is done=' ) It's the time to apply the mixture on ur face^^ Rinse it of after 10 to 15 minutes.

2. Natural set yogurt

You can buy this natural set yogurt in super market, the cheapest one will do=' ) Natural set do not contain flavour, no added sugar or colour. It will helps to moisture, hydrating and bla bla bla ur skin^^

U do not need much. I just need a scoop of natural set yogurt and a teaspoon of honey if u like. Mix it up and apply on ur face. Rinse it off after 15 to 20 minutes with lurk warm water =' ) U will found u have a more bright complexion^^

Besides, natural set yogurt is a great ingredient for doing hair mask too! U may need 5 to 6 scoop of natural set yogurt(depends) and a teaspoon of olive oil(if u wish). Try and find the differences urself!

3. D>I>Y> scrub

Heeeeeeeeeeeeee^^ I love this much! It helps to smooth ur skin off! And it works!

What u need is a container of course, a teaspoon of cider vinegar, 4 to 5 tablespoon of brown sugar(fined), 2 teaspoon of green tea, and 2 teaspoon of honey=' ).

Cider vinegar not only help to improve acne skin and redness on skin. It also helps to control skin's pH level. brown sugar is the main part of scrub and it moisture ur skin too. Green tea do helps to heal acne scars.

Firstly, put a teaspoon of cider vinegar, 2 teaspoon of honey and 2 teaspoon of green tea. Stir the mixture well. Then add a spoon of sugar, stir....... add on 2nd spoon of sugar and stir........ add on the 5th spoon of sugar and stir it well! U will get a quite large portion of scrub. A lil bit of it is enough for the entire face=' ) Keep the rest in the fridge. U can use it twice or triple a week. It is easy and cheap. The most important thing is.... It is natural! Do not contain any preservatives that do not benefit ur skin!

Try and experience it urself today =' ) Have a good day~

2010-09-27T05:59:00.001-07:00

Finish my dinner, sitting infront my messy desk.. Not feeling like wanna study.. I staring at my phone.. Try to remember every single msg that my dear had send me.. Took up my phone, open inbox.. N i began to read every msg tat he'd send me.. Once again, i feel the warmth, feel the care, the love.. Soon, i've forgotten those harmful words from my family that's enuff to kill me.. Babe, u'd accompanied me go through every tough moments.. Thanks.. thanks for your caring.. thanks for the silence when we argue.. thanks for every thing..

I've been full of tears, pains, scars.. I used to be worried, disappointed, insecure.. But u cured the pain, and scars recovered, I'm trying to be stronger and stronger.. It can be proof that i din cry for this time. It's just because i knew.. I knew every thing will be alright.. U lend ur ears to me when i need some1 to talk with, u lend ur shoulder for me when i feel like wanna cry, u calm me down when i panic like hell, u stand behind me when i'm gonna to crumble.. and your sweet talks when i was angry.. I'm so glad to be with you.. You are the one i can rely on.. N i'll always remember what have u taught me.. Always remember what's happy, always forget what unhappy = ) S.M.I.L.E.

。。。。。。

2010-09-13T03:09:00.000-07:00

很快地。。一个礼拜的假期。。就这样的结束了。。这一个礼拜。。我告诉自己要努力。。可是我失败了。。一个礼拜的时间。。对我而言。。好像过了一百年。。感觉很多事情都冲着我而来。。感觉很重。。这种感觉。。两年前我也体会过。。常常回想起两年前的自己。。到底是坚强。。还是脆弱得连面对的勇气也没有？那一年。。我到底是怎么熬过去的呢？当时我选择沉默。。然而现在也一样。。不同点是。。现在的沉默是以笑带过。。那也意味着我已经麻了。。从失望到有希望，希望到失望。。我的心也快要掉下来了。。那种感觉不是每个人都能了解的。。纵使是身边的亲人朋友。。最可悲的是。。当最伤心的时候。。竟然一个朋友也不在身边。。不是电话打不通。。就是没有接电话。。想起昔日一起欢笑的日子和这个情况相比。。确实有点荒谬。。可却是事实。。

很多朋友告诉我。。我的思绪很难捉摸。。我都只是敷衍的答了一句。。其实我心里也是在思考同一样的问题。。我也搞不懂自己想什么。。

我知道，我需要的是一丁点的勇气我就能坦然面对一切。。可是我就偏偏连那一丁点的勇气也拿不出来。。我没有闪躲，亦没有逃避。只是措手不及。。来不及反应只好保持沉默。沉默思考了许久，没想到该怎么办，也只好继续沉默。只是没有想到沉默了那么久。。能肯定的是这苦带有一丝甜。。可那一丝甜味，促使我尝清楚了那苦有多么的苦。理智点想想。。吃得苦中苦，方为人上人。。苦尽甘会来。。可是再想想。。如果人人都这么想的话，自杀率就不会那么高啦。。人能理智多久呢？总有一天也会懦弱下来的。。再理智的人也会有彷徨无助，崩溃的时候。。而且理智的人是尝得最清楚苦是怎么样的哪一个。。所以人理智也不是一件事。。

I love this song....

2010-09-11T21:42:00.000-07:00

Just Ignore me.. I'm too bored~

2010-09-08T01:43:00.000-07:00

Heeeeeeeeeeeeeee = D
Guess what i've done??
LOL~
I was too bored during this morning~
N feel like dun1 to study~
So~ I played with my fake lashes =' )
Actually this is natural type of fake lashes~
I combined them together~
N looks like this.....................

Whoooooooooooooopsssss...
Big dark circles~ LOL~
I looks so stupid n retarded~ I noe~ LOL~
Later go pasar malam with hubby, Christine & her hunbby=' )
So happy n excited now ^^

Do u miss My daughther -- Nana???

2010-09-05T22:49:00.000-07:00

Hello ~ Long time no see^^
I'm Nana^^ Did u miss me?? I guess u did ^^
Muackz~~~ TQ~ TQ~

I S.M.I.L.E when u say u miss me~

I C.R.Y when u said u dun miss me t.t
But back to reality~
It is not worth to cry for some people or any bad thing~
If you think it's not your fault~ Pls~ Dun cry~
Crying is a way for us to release our feelings~
Not a tool to let others sympathize on you~
If u think it works~Keep it on~
But I'm sure I'm not the one who sympathize on you~
I found It's hard to talk with you~
It's enuff~ How sad am I when i heard u say tat~

Frenz~ Especially my mum= )
Dun ask me who am i talking after viewing this post~
If u dun wish to see me get piss off~
I just wanna to release my feeling by writing blog as I dun hav anyone to tell~

Shopping with sis =' )

2010-09-05T22:34:00.000-07:00

Today............... Wake up at 9 am.....Reluctantly....
Coz i promise my sis to accompany her to go bintang...
So..........................
Actually~ I still very sleepy~ T.T
While i accompany my sis go Lowyat~
I saw this......
And I remember that i wanna to buy memory card for my pink baby N yrs ago~
So i bought this ^^ Juz for RM30 smt only~
Sis said she want to buy shirts~
So i accompany her.... WALK to Pavilion~
N i bought this when my sis is still in fitting room tried on her shirts~
^^
Blue leggings~
I dunnoe it can match which clothes of mine~
I bought it juz bcoz i like the colour~
I believe i can find a clothe to match it =' )
I'm using Faceshop's sun block~
But it's a bit oily when i apply on my face~
I dun like the feeling~
So i change brand...
But i think i bought wrong aldy~
This is too watery~
Eeeeeee............
Worst than before~
After that~
We bought a roll of French roll for my dad n we went home~
Happy Shopping Day =' )

28/08/10 Family dinner

2010-09-05T22:17:00.000-07:00

Last Saturday I have a family dinner at KLCC convention center~
Erm~ Not bad lar~
All Malay food~
I like the Kari seafood & the Marsh Mellow Ice-Cream~
Owh~ My favourite Marsh Mellow^^ Yum yum= )
^^ Camwhore"ing" while waiting my sis~ LOL~

And we reach thr around 8 p.m.~
YesSsSsSs..... START^^
This is the scene.............
I din take photos of the food coz i'm too hungry and cannot wait!!!

The waiter serve this to us after our meal~
This is a fruit from Terengganu which you couldn't found in KL~
But....................... It taste............. Euch..........
I vomit it out T.T

After the dinner~ It's around 9.30~ All my relatives went home aldy~
Haih~ Still so early~
My sis n I walk around n see got anything else can buy for my DAD for his birthday~
N lastly...........
We decided to bought this........
Teehee^^
We wrote lotza thins inside~
But i din show here lar~
It's confidential~LOL~ =' )

Happy Birthday DAD =' )
We love you ^^

*My sis refused to take photo with me........Too bad....*

Shakira~She's so beautiful =' )

2010-09-05T19:50:00.000-07:00

Finally.................

2010-09-03T05:01:00.000-07:00

Finally~ Everything is over~
I means test~ Assignments.....
AND Tommorrow is the beginning of holiday ^^
Yippie^^ Clap clap ^^
Tonight will be a good good night~

BUT....... I promise myself~
Before i enjoy my holiday~
I should finish my psychology research first~
arghhhhh....... =' 0
Too bad~ I hate to write report~
Especially those must write about theories~
I feel like wanna bang my head to the wall and kill myself~
N....... I hate the 'process' of doing research~
Like find n read articles, summarize, combine, add own opinion, and so on~
N i hate...................
Erm~ In conclusion, I hate to do research~~ t.t
No matter how~ I got no choice~
I have to do it!
Yeah! Just do it!
Pray for me & wish me good luck for my research T.T
Got to go, Bye~ =' )

Take this photo few days ago~
But this is the best expression to describe my mood now~
MOODY & EXHAUSTED

Dear~ Happy 2nd Anniversary~

2010-08-29T06:26:00.000-07:00

Dear~
Happy 2nd Anniversary~
I'm so happy to be with you~

Owh~~~ You know??? I love her voice!!!!!!!!

2010-08-27T07:24:00.000-07:00

Unknown - Rebel [New Demo 2010 for Leona Lewis]

2010-08-27T07:23:00.001-07:00

Unknown - Rain & Thunder [New Demo 2010 for Leona Lewis]

2010-08-27T07:23:00.000-07:00

Leona Lewis - Perfection [New Song 2010]

2010-08-27T07:22:00.001-07:00

Leona Lewis - How Everything You Are [New Song 2010]

2010-08-27T07:22:00.000-07:00

Leona Lewis - Crying Is Beautiful [New Song 2010]

2010-08-27T07:21:00.000-07:00

Unknown - Rebel [New Demo 2010 for Leona Lewis]

2010-08-27T07:20:00.000-07:00

Time Heals Broken Hearts - Leona Lewis (New Demo 2010)

2010-08-27T07:19:00.000-07:00

Owh! I love Colbie's songs =' )

2010-08-27T07:17:00.000-07:00

Colbie Caillat - The Fabric of Our Lives (FULL SONG!)

2010-08-27T07:10:00.000-07:00

Ke$ha - N-N-N-Neva Baby (NEW SONG 2010 FULL VERSION)

2010-08-27T07:09:00.000-07:00

Bruno Mars - Just The Way You Are Official Lyrics Video (HD)

2010-08-27T07:06:00.000-07:00

Busy monthSSSSSSSSSSS is coming....

2010-08-21T23:51:00.000-07:00

Owh~
This month would be the last month for SAM students prepare for their Trial Exam~
I'm so worried i couldn't do well in this exam~
Especially Math~
I really cannot believe how badly i have done for my class test ~
Not only the class test but all the test n exam of Math~
Although i have put as much effort as i can on it~
I din get below 50marks for Math since form 4~
But now.............................
SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!
It makes me very upset n demotivate~

N this month would be the busiest month of this year~
Haih.. Psychology research~ Presentation~ Class test~~
Owh! It's so annoying~
N the main point is...
I'm exhausted~ Not able to carry on all these things anymore~
*SOB*

Haih~ Gotta to proceed my work aldy~
Too bad T.T Can i just ''let go"?
Urgh! Ada Ho!
This is a must! You have no choice!!
Gotta stop here all my friends~
Will be back soon =' )
Dada^^

Girls and boys~~~~ Do you know?????

2010-08-13T07:08:00.000-07:00

I'm quite annoyed by pimples and acne this few week~

So, i decide to find more information about pimples, acne, white heads n black heads in order to "SOLVE" this "PROBLEM"
N i believe that many people, especially teens have this "problem"~
Hope these information are useful =' )

Our skin is full of hair follicle n hair grows from this follicle.
Each hair comes out from a pore and hair follicle is connected to a sebaceous gland.
The sebaceous glands produce sebum, which keep the skin surface oily to protect our skin.

A healthy skin, the pore should be open and the sebum comes out on the skin surface.
In skin affected by acne, the opening of the pore gets clogged with dead skin cells.
This blocks the sebum inside the follicle.
Try n imagine that a balloon is getting filled.
What will happen then??
Similarly the follicle gets inflated as more sebum fills it.
At this stage, a bacterium called P.acnes infects the sebum and multiplies inside.

The whiteness of an acne lesion is the pus formed by the dead white cells that fight the P.acnes bacteria.
When the follicle cannot sustain the pressure inside, it bursts then.

Okay~Okay~ Maybe you may not understood what am I talking about or u r not interested~
Coz it's a bit complicated~

Now, I'm gonna to tell how acne develops =' )

In the first stage, blackheads and whiteheads develop.
These are also called comedones.
Blackheads are open at the top and the whiteheads are closed with skin.
The black substance in blackheads is oxidized sebum.
These comedones contain a mixture of sebum and dead cells.
N now, u need a comedone serum or a scrup~
But i think scrup is not enough to prevent acne and clear acne~

Now, we move to second stage.
The follicle gets infected with the bacteria P.acnes and bacteria multiply rapidly in the follicles due to absence of air and the presence of excess sebum and dead cells.
This type of acne is called a pimple.
Pimples may be of two types which are pustule and papule.
A Papule is cellular mass that is not infected while pustules are pus filled infected lesions.

While the third stage are acne inflamed nodules and cysts develop.
A nodule is a solid lesion, which is bigger than a papule.
A nodule is highly inflamed and painful and extends deeper in the skin and causes scars.

A cyst is also severe acne.
A cyst is a sac full of infected sebum, bacteria, dead cells and white blood cells.
Cysts are much larger than pustules and infect the deep layers of skin like nodular acne.
In nodulocystic acne, cysts and nodules develop together.
To prevent acne formed,
We should take notice of our meals...
Avoid oily food!!! N consume too much chocolates also may cause acne =' )
Choose facial products that suit your skin type~
N..... N........
Ensure those product did not contain alchohol n fragrance~
N cleanser should not contain any exfoliating compounds~
These ingredients will dehydrate your skin n reduce your own skin protection.

Hope my sharing is helpful=' )
It's time to sleep now~
Have a nice weekend everyone~
Love ya ^^
Nitez~ Muackzx~
SweetDreams **

She's back........ (part 2)

2010-08-06T05:38:00.000-07:00

Owh~ This is the Tee i mentioned in the last post^^

I like the doggie^^
It's so adorable~~
But it is a bit small in size~
But i still like it^^
Yes... This is flower hair band from Dorothy Perkins~
Guess how much izit?
It is just 1 or 2 UK Dollar~
Means it is around 5 or 10 Malaysia Ringit~
Erm........
I'm wondering why......
Everything in Malaysia also very expensive 1...
haih..... N those "branded" bra like La xexxa, Xixxxi, n ...............
Yes undeniable~ Their quality is quite okay~
But, in other western country...
These brand can found in pasar malam...
N... it's selling price is low in others country...

N my sis bought this lil clock looks a like souvenir in Germany~
I like the hedgehog~ The smiley smiley face^^
N the hen on the clock ~LOL!!!!

Still remember i was around 4 or 5 yrs old, I likes..........
PINOCCHIO!!!!!!!!!!
I likes the story n i like the marionette----pinocchio's characteristic~
It's cute~
My sis told me tat pinocchio committed suicide in the actual story coz he can't turn into human being..
But peoples in Italy dislike and complain on the poor ending of the story..
So, they change the end of the story..

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On this wed, we got extra class until 5 actually~
But our lecturer advance the time of the extra class..
Thus, we finished our class at 3^^
N my 'dad'----- Lynus come fetch us^^
But we din go by 3 lar~
We go Snowflakes before we go back^^
It's a long time i din go Snowflakes with frenzx=.=
After Snowflakes, it's around 5~
N we go....... Connought pasar malam =' )
I bought a box of fake lashes which have 10pairs inside..
It's 3 ringgit only...
Ofcoz it's quality is not so good lar~
But still can use~

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Hohoho.... I'm gonna to blog my hows my day goes... hahah
Today~ My class end at 1.. It's early for us who study SAM~
wakakakkakaka....
So hub hub come n fetch me go Pyramid^^
N Menmen, Linlin, Mummy & Dixdix tumbang our car~
N the others 4 poor thing tumbang taxi...
haha~ too bad~~ too bad~~
Owh!!! It's a short journey from our campus to Pyramid~
But it is a long journey to find parking =.+
Dunnoe y Pyramid is so full today.. Hard to find parking...
Okay~ Finally~ We found it.... N settle down...
N hub hub n me have Sushi as lunch =' )
Long time din eat sushi aldy~ So touch~ LOL~
After tat we walk around n I bought tis from Sasa~
It is use to even toned of face, brithen our skin, reduct pigmentation, n so on...
Beside i bought a lotion for my sis..
But i din upload the photo coz i forgot to take photo before i gave it to my sis~ XD

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She's back...........................................

2010-07-31T00:43:00.001-07:00

Yes..... My sis is back~

She bought a lots a lots of chocolates and cookies for us^^
Besides~ She bought me a dress, singlet, legging, and zara Tee~
This is one box of the cookies^^

Tadaa~ ~~ Cookies show~
Flower cookies~ It taste good=' )
This is chocolate & raisin cookie^^N........... This..............
Oh no.....
I'm failed to on diet~
Too bad~~~ T.T
Sis~ Some times i hate u......
Chocolates from Switzerland~ UK~ N so on~

This is the 5 pound singlet & legging~ LOL~Nice? Hehe^^
It's same prices as a shirt which bought from Sungei Wang or TimesSquare~
But the quality is much more better~

But a bit loose for me~ >.<

The blue flower nice right?
But actually i prefer the other color 1 >.<
The red color~ But my sis said it's out of stock~
So she take this color for me~
Not too bad lar~ I likes blue too^^
N this ~The dress~From ZARA~
It's cheap~ At least 50% Cheaper than bought in M'sia!

Front~
Owh! I likes flowerish dress n clothes^^
But a bit short >.< LOLX~
It's light green~ A sweet color~
N I love my sis now^^
I like the ribbon at the back~
So cute!!!
But cant see in this pic~ Too bad~~

Weeeeeehhhhhhhhheeeeee~~~

2010-07-31T00:16:00.001-07:00

Weehee^^

I got it i got it^^
Thx mai dear^^ Muackz~

♥TSUYAGLA IRON♥

It can make big curls, small curls, or straight hair~
I love this^^

U can set the temperature which suitable for ur hair^^

Sry~ The pic is very small cant see it clearly~
This curl & straight iron can create 3 different type of curls~

N Thx for my mummy~ Wayne~
He help me bought this---------
Heat protectant~
It helps to protect our hair from getting damage when
we curl or straighten our hair by using iron~
N my hair is not very healthy~
So it is important for me before i set my hair^^

My Babe Baby -- Ida Chen

2010-07-24T09:17:00.000-07:00

Kakaka~
Yes! This is my Ida Baby^^
We take alots of photo on tat day we go out yamchar~

Ida~ Y photos that you edit so blur de~~ >.<

Ida is pulling her hair n I dunnoe wad am I doing~ LOL~

Ignore me~ I'm too stress~ Got mental problem aldy~

Owh!! I miss the moment that be with you~
I dunnoe how to live without you~
U see,,
How much i love you~ LOL~
U leh~ Let me xiong sam only~
Call u 10 times u only pick up once~ LOL~

Owh~ We took too much photos~ LOL~

My Miao Miao post ^^

无题~

2010-07-19T07:54:00.000-07:00

快乐的日子总是过得特别快~
这是我以前的补习老师最爱说的“名句”~
对我而言，
日子无论是快乐还是不快乐，
也是过得很快~
以前总只是懂得一步一步地向前走~
却忽略了后头很多值得珍惜的人，事，物~

大人们常说“人生无常”~
那时总是觉得大人们的道理很无聊~
可是人生道路上~
只走了18年，
蓦然回首~
发现得到的很多~
错失却也不少~
然而尝试了得到后的感觉，
却顿然发现原来这~都不是自己最想要的~
而失去的总是最值得珍惜~
可是等到失去了以后~
再也没有回头路~
更没有资格去后悔~
只能看着它慢慢变成遗憾~
因为路是自己选的~
是咎由自取的~
再不情愿~ 也得熬过去~

回想起小时候，
没有顾虑~
我就是我自己~
那种感觉总是叫人回味~
无奈~ 环境不会因为人们不适而改变~
适者生存~弱者淘汰~
人再不情愿也得改变自己~
心疼一些人一旦改变了~
就完完全全地忘了本来的自己~

18年匆匆地过了~
可悲，总是一个人~
静静坐着~
静静幻想未来~
黯然落泪~
心碎也只有自己懂~

没人倾听，逆来顺受~
这种日子不好走~
朋友选不好~
日子更难走~

也许~当我再度看回这部落格~
会觉得当时的自己的傻~
很幼稚~恨不得掴自己两巴掌~
然而忆起幼稚的自己，
也是一种简单的幸福~

很多人常问~
幸福怎么会简单？
幸福根本是遥不可及~
可是对我而言~
幸福只在于自己本身怎么看待~

I'd tried my best~

2010-07-06T07:18:00.000-07:00

I'd tried my best to do everything for you~
But~ You seems like still unsatisfied with my performance~
Yes, I'm absolutely not a talent~
I'm not good in languages, science, math, study and even everything~
But, did you see how hard i work for it?
I hate account~
Did u even heard I want to give up this subject and just let it failed?
Let me tell u~
I din~ I do work hard for it~
U said I'm useless,
Did u ever found I'm good in some aspect?
No~ U didn't~ If u did~ I'm not studying what I'm studying now~
N no one is useless in this world~
Unless the person give up himself~

Yes, I admit I used to be very useless~
I always blame myself to calm you down even i know that it's not my fault~
I'm not able to explain to you~
It shows how useless I am~
But I won't commit the same mistake again~
I will bear my mind~
I will be more reasonable~
I will be more strong~
I will proof it by action~

I argue with you~
Not because I'm irresponsible, not because I'm stubborn~
This is just because I love you~
I love you as how much you love me~ And even more than it~
But u seems didn't feel it~
Never mind~ U'll knew it in one day~

You shouldn't say that~
Even you actually didn't mean it~
It's still hurt~
It will drive me crazy~
Not because I'm emo~
It's just because I care about you~
I care what you say and think about me~

I'm in a very bad mood now~
I need no comfort, but a listener~ A true listener~

Ada learning purple smoky eyes~

2010-06-27T00:33:00.000-07:00

Ignore my right eye~
I din do make up on my right eye~ LOL~

I use 20mins to do 1 eye~
so slow~
N i din apply eyeliner~

This is my 1st time~
Use eyes shadow~
Haha~
Not bad hor~
^^

Have you ever seen thisssssss???

2010-06-27T00:17:00.001-07:00

Snail~~~~~
Without shell~
Looks a bit disgusting~
I stunned when i saw THIS poor creature in the fridge~
Roger said: " U see how serious global warming is!
Even snail also tak boleh tahan n hiding in ur fridge"
LOL~ My dear bcome sot sot aldy~

Shopping Day~ Weehee^^

2010-06-10T06:46:00.000-07:00

Tis morning,

When my father & I were going to have our breakfast,
A scary accident happened nearby our house O.o!!!
A motorcyclist was lying on the middle of the road!
His forehead was bleeding!! A lot!
Awww~ So pain.... But we din even touch him~
Coz we scared it may hurt him~
So my dad juz call 911 to inform the hospital and require an ambulance to come~
Haih~ At this moment~
An indian lady~ Came~
She said: "Why dun u all chinese man help him??
U all got car wat~ Send him to hospital la........."
WTH.. Ur daughter also own a car wat~ Y dun u send him to hospital?
Okay~Okay~ It's not a matter~
We are not suppose to move the injury due to we do not have sufficient medical knowledge~
And we are not self-fish~ If we are~
We will just pass by~ But not call the ambulance~
She say we din help him~ But the earliest who leave is her =.+
One thing i have to clarify tat~
I do not means to be racial discrimination~ I just tell the truth~
I mention the women as Indian lady coz i dunnoe how to address her~
Okay~ Back to the poor old man~
Some warm-hearted ppl ask the old man whether he know his forehead is bleeding~
The old man asnwer: "NO~"
"Do you noe u r involve in an accident?"
"NO~"
Owh!! Gosh~
The poor old man dun even noe he's involving in an accident!
Okay~ 15 mins or so~ The ambulance came.................................................................
Dad n I proceed our "journey" to have our breakfast~LOL~

Shopping day shopping day^^
Haha~ Today We went to SG. Wang (ps. I drove thr!!!)
Ahahahahhahahahaha!
It's really fortunate tat my photo will not published on tml's newspaper~
Hee^^
But I nearly hit the wall in the car park~ OoPss~
I meet KarWea N her frenz (forgive me~I dun remember their names>.<>
=.=# Told him to come back yesterday~ Hah! U see! Late again!
But never mind~ I got KarWea n her frens companion~ LOL~
We went to "欢喜地" to have our lunch^^
I ordered a bread~
(Actually ot's not really a bread~But it do looks like bread~I dunnoe wat izit also)
After order~~~~~~~~~~~
Guess wat!! It's PhotoS Snapping time!! LOL~
We did take lotza photos which KarWea n I aldy post in FB~
(Lazy to upload>.<)
Haih~ Finally~ My "bread" came~
Owh~ It taste bad!!!
After the lunch~
Hiu~ My dear finally reach SG. Wang~
Hm!! Roger Lim~ U dare to let me wait for so long time ~
N he bought me these~
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♥ WALLET
Actually~ Izit call wallet? Or Purse?
I noe i'm noob~ I admit~
Dun scold me~ T.T
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♥ BELT
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♥ SUN GLASSES
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(More photos r posted on FB^^)

N we went visit SUGAR!!!!!!!!
Owh!! My Sugar become so fat aldy~
Thx to her dad~~Roger Lim~=.=
But so sad~ She couldn't recognized me T.T

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02/06/10 Outing v Boyz N Galz~

2010-06-05T06:28:00.000-07:00

That day KarWea, Karmen, Wayne, Lynus, Dixon & me
went to Sunway Pyramid~

Yea!!
Long long time din shopping aldy!!
I'm so excited~LOL~
(But so sad! I forgot to take photo v my babez~ N dixon dun1 take photo also~ Too bad >.<) N THESE are wat i bought~ Wakakakaka XD ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ Top~ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
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Dress^^
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Jacket! (Wayne say i'm very 没有女人味~ Ha! Now i bought this! LOL)
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Flahsy Flashy^^

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Ear Rings 1~~
SMILE =^)

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Ear Rings 2~ I like tis much! Karmen also got bought this^^

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It's so special & nice!! Ow! I like it!!

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What can i do???!!

2010-05-31T05:13:00.000-07:00

Aikz.............Very bored......Nothing to do~

So~~ I blog again^^

Yesterday night, after fetch my mum to Maluri,
I went Leisure Mall by myself^^(Yeah! I drove there!)
Before my mum n i went out,
my dad ask me to get him something from popular.
So i went to popular 1st ~~
When i step into popular,
Waow~ So many ppl~ T.T
Aiks~ No choice~

After buy those things which my dad ask me to buy,
I went to SASA~^^~
Hohohohohohohohohohoho~
Guess what i bought??
Yea! U r right!
I bought a pair of artificial eyelashes~^^
AND~~~
This afternoon,
I done something very funny~
But it's useful~LOL~
Tadaa..... This is what i have done in this afternoon :
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It's very easy n convenient~
If u r very rush in the morning,
U can juz apply some toner n tinted moisturiser~
N tats it^^ sunblock can excluded if your foundation include SPF~

And, I add some decoration on the container's top due to i'm too bored,
and got nothing to do so~ ♥^^♥ Nice?haha~

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Happy Day?? Boring Day???

2010-05-29T05:21:00.000-07:00

OwWwWwWwWw~~

My blog looks so dead~ LOL~

Since I'm damn boring now n got nothing to do~
So~
I decided to blog about my happy n boring day~ Hahahaha!
Sounds so silly rite?
I know~ I know~
But dun laugh at me man~ T.T

Okay~ Okay~
Let me start my ~~STORY~~

This afternoon, my babe Ida come to fetch me yam char~
Erm~ Actually we planned to have lunch this afternoon~
But~~~ My mum aldy cooked for me~
So, i got no choice~
Ida n me gotta have lunch at home only can go out yam char~
~~~Sigh~~~
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Yay~ We r heading to Tesco~lalalallalalalala~
(Ida fetch me thr..........OopPpppsss......)
I pray for the whole journey until we reach Tesco~
But~ Thx God~ Today no accident happened~
Lolx~(Ida will kill me if she saw this~hahax~)

Ida accompany me to Watson~
N i bought these :

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Ginvera Green Tea Whitening Marvel Gel
I heard some1 say it's very nice
So I also bought 1 n try
Since i haven use it before
So i'm not gonna comment on this product
( I use many "So" lol~)

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Nana: "Mummy mummy~
Nana also wanna try this~"
Mum: "No, Nana tat's for mummy not you~
You r still young~
No need to use this~
If u wan~Mummy promise to buy for you when you grow up~
Okay?
Mummy Love You~~"
Roger(my hubby): " Oh~ My dear~ It's time for ur medication~"

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Okay~ Okay~
I know I'm so lame~
But this is due to i'm toooooooooo bored........
I'm half died now actually >.<
~Ellips Hair Vitamin for Dry Hair~
I also bought this at Watson~
I try it after shower just now~
What i can tell is~
It's quite nice~
N it's cheap~RM4++ only~
It worth~Coz it really works~
Any1 who have dry hair~
Can try this~
But... No 100% guaranty la~
Coz different ppl got different type of hair~^^

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Actually it got 4 colors~
Different color got different effect~
I choose yellow coz I got dry hair n i'm not often styling my hair~
*SOB*
'Yellow' Ellips Hair Vitamin can smooth dry hair~
N let dull hair looks a bit shinny~
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Okay~ After "Shopped" at Watson~
We go a Hong Kong style restaurant "欢喜地" yam char~
^^I din order any drinks coz i'm not feeling well these few days( flu n cough)~
So i gotta 介口 T.T
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Before we go back,
We bought these at a shop:

Actually it's 1 pair d~ I took pink n Ida took blue 1~
We r sweet couple~LOL

..................My siily face~^^.................

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Just now,
My dear tag me these photos at Facebook:

Yes!!! Tat's my daughter!!!
Sugar!!
Oh my lovely daughter~
How do u do?
Mummy miss u so much!!
You got miss mummy ma??
Can let mummy hug hug??
Aiyo~ Mummy wanna kiss you too!
Muackz! Muackz! Muackz!
Roger (my hubby):
"Erm... Dear~ I think the medi tat u take juz now not strong enuff~
I better find another doctor for u now~"

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...............My 全家福~ Nice? haha!..............

Sugar : "Mummy i wanna drink water~ I'm so thirsty~ *SOB*~
Me : " Oh~ Babe dun do tat! It's dangerous~ Come down!!
Mummy get you some water! Come!"
Roger : "......................Oh No!!!! DOCTOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I NEED HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!
My dear stress until become psychotic!!!!!"
Me : "Hey! shut up! Don't u see I'm talking with my daughter??"
Roger : "........................... =.=!!! "

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I'm enjoying my breakfast~~ hmmmm...yummy...

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Sugar : "Daddy~ Ur hand so comfortable^^"
Roger : "Ofcoz la~ Ur mum like ur dad's hand so much~hehe"
Me : " =.=!!! "

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Forbidden Dream~

2009-12-18T04:54:00.000-08:00

Do you ever had a forbidden dream?
Dream like u really wanna make it be your future~
But you do not have the ability~Or something had block your way?
I dropped up my dream coz i don't have the qualification~
A qualification to proof that I'm a science class student and i have the ability to get into medical field~
It still got a path way to get in actually~
But my mum say the risk is too highand I can't afford it~
She don't want me to try~
So~What can I do?
Quarrel with her?
I won't~ because i will be the loser at the end~I knew it~

I was very sad when i heard my mum ask me to drop it~
I run into my room~ Slammed my door shut~
I can't control my emotion~
Non stop of thinking about what can I do~
Asking myself calm down 1st~Only the problem can solve~
But I can'..........

有时候~

2009-12-17T05:28:00.001-08:00

今天~
有人问了我一个问题~
他问我~
你了解自己吗？
我愣住了~
不知道要怎么回答~
回家后我静静的想了想~
我？了解自己？

而有时候~
当我遇到很开心的事而笑时~
那种感觉~
很特别~
我很喜欢发自内心笑的感觉~
可是~很不容易~

我~
表面看来很脆弱~
其实~不是的~
没有主见~彷徨~等等~
那~已经是以前的我了~
而他~也已经走进历史了~
有时候~我问意见~
不是我没有主见~
而是我习惯了有参考的例子~
有时候我犹豫不决~
是因为我害怕出错~
脆弱的感觉~由此闵生~

过去的种种~
还是抹不去的~
我回选择牢记着~
因为它可以鉴证~我一路走来不易~
我得来的也不易~
我犯下的过错~
我答应我自己不会再犯~
"U should have to bear your mind, before you make decision."
有人曾经这样劝告过我~
可是我没有记着~
可是当我犯下了不可你补的过错时~
这句话我终于明白了~
可是也太迟了~
事情回不了原点了~

我很喜欢远远的瞻望~
我希望一切问题都好像在我脚下的景物~
一切尽在我预计~控制之中~
可是世事哪有这么完美~
有~也只是在电影情节中~

高中生活里~
我过得比其他人吃力~
我奋斗~我努力~
我并不知道为了什么~
我只知道~
这是我的前途~
至于兴趣~
我一点也没有~
唯一让我感到慰籍的是~
我的朋友~和我的男朋友~
我的朋友中在我需要陪伴的时候陪着我~
而我的男朋友重在我心情低落的时候逗我开心~
使我不再愁眉苦脸~

我很爱哭~
认识我的人都知道~
哭对我来说是一种发泄~
可是很少人会了解这一点~
朋友们安慰我时~
总是喜欢
叫我不要哭~
错了~错了~
你叫我不要哭~
我找不到理由让我自己停止哭泣啊~
我只会越想越开心~
然后又是一阵抽泣声~
不过有朋友安慰也是很幸福的~

可是有时候~
当我无助~彷徨时~
我总是一个人面对~
这时~孤寂又找上我了~
不想面对~可是始终要面对~
无可奈何~
只可怨~我太执著~

Over Persisted~

2009-12-16T04:56:00.000-08:00

"Nothing is Impossible, Impossible is Nothing"
I thought it is right~
So~ I just keep walking the way tat i thought it's right~
But actually~
I make a big big mistake~
Yeap~It's a simple idiom as 5years-old child also know it~
But~I~a 17years old girl~
Misunderstood this idiom~
Some body can makes their dreams true~
Because they walk to the right way at the beginning~
N they walk carefully~
They ensure they didn't make any mistake in their journey~
They got the potential to make their dreams become their future~

But me?
Yeap~I also hav a dream~
N i exerted all my strength to make my dream comes true~
But~ i just make a mistake~
I step on a wrong step~
I didn't blame anyone or anything~
Because there's no use to blame~
There's no turning back~
I can't regret~
Because that's my choice~

I have to drop down the dream that i posses~
I have to~
My mum say i'm childish~
ya~ I am~
I'm too innocent~
I'm too stubborn~
I'm too persisted~

Feel so empty~
Like there's no tomorrow~
I hate myself~
I'm wimpish~
Should have to be stronger~
But i cant~~

SPM's OVER!!!!!!!

2009-12-14T06:22:00.000-08:00

SPM's OVER!!!!!!!!
Gosh~
Wat i gonna do now?
Shopping? Watching TV? N blablabla for all the holiday?
Wow~ If i do so~
My holiday is gonna to be a meaningless holiday!!!!!
Take an english course?
I'm too lazy to wake up in the early morning~
Go for a dancing class?
No one accompany me~
Find a part time job?
I guaranty no one willing to hire me T.T
Coz i juz can do for half month only~SOB~
So~ I better stay at home n trying to read a book~
LOL~
Ada Ho stay at home n do reading~~~So weird...haha~

Some more i feel like stress still haunting me~
I'm worry about I can't apply the course i wanna study in college~
I noe it's hard for a commerce student to apply into science field~
But at least i've tried~
I noe i will be regret if i din try~
I will feel so sry to myself~
My mum recommend me to study accounting or business~
But i'm not interesting in this field~
And i noe i'm not belongs to this field~
I've no "business sense"~
I noe~ Bcoz i noe myself well~
PLS~PLS~Don't force me to do what i din like to do~
I noe every mum also love their children~
My mum too~But she use another way to show her love~
She worry about me~worry about my future~
Mum force me to do things tat i dun like~
Bcoz I'm mum's daughter~ I'm not an outsider~
But it's too over~I can't breathe~
I have my way to go~
So~Pls~Pls~ Let me go~
N I need your encouragement~Indeed~

女孩的故事~

2009-10-18T05:37:00.000-07:00

反正今天得空~

就来和大家说个故事吧~~

在两年前~

一个无论生活还是成绩都平平无奇的十五岁女孩~

接了一通来电后~

兴奋的告诉妈妈~

"妈!! 我可以不用参加数理加强班就申请进入理科班了~"

没错~

女孩从初中一开始就立志要当一名医生~

在这个理科与商科的抉择中~

她最需要的是家人的支持~

可是~

女孩的妈妈听见女孩的这番话后没有为女孩高兴~

只回了一句~

"理科??你那里行??你以为容易吖??你成绩那么烂~"

随后就没有理睬女孩~继续看电视~

那时~

女孩的心几乎是碎掉的~

最后女孩还是有些犹豫的在表格上填上理科班~

她回家后便告诉妈妈~

"妈~ 我选择了理科班~"

女孩的妈妈显得有些不耐烦的说到~

"你留级了不要哭~我也不会为你转校~"

这番话严重的打击了女孩的信心~

让女孩产生了转系的念头~

经过几个星期的考虑后~

意志还不够坚定的女孩~

自行向学校拨了一通电话~

询问转系的手续~

不费几分钟~

女孩便把转系的申请信件写好了~

妈妈也很赞同的在信件上签上了大名~

就这样~

女孩转去了商科系~

一月开学时~

是女孩高中生活恶梦的开始~

她非常抗拒所谓的簿记~商业学~

可是她别无选择~

还是得把它们搞懂~

因为她知道~

这是她的责任~

她也很清楚知道~

在爸妈眼里~

成绩是面子~是一切~

最可悲的是~

高中生活的两年里~

她所付出的~努力的~

都不是为自己而努力~

而是为她爸妈~

现在~女孩长大了~

意志也开始坚定了~

她决定~

念完高二~就出来念COLLEGE~

希望能够花点时间~

申请进入药剂系~

可是又在这关键时刻~

女孩的妈妈~

又泼女孩冷水了~

"你行吗?? 你英文那么烂~ 成绩那么烂!!"

女孩终于忍不住~破口大骂~

"妈! 我是你女儿!! 为什么我做什么你也不支持??!!

我成绩有烂到留级吗??

你的烂是几分那???

你说我数学差~

好!!我努力~~

我拿了个60多70分~

虽然不是很好~可是这是烂吗??

你有称赞过吗??

在我最需要人支持的时候~

你在那里???

你连简单的一句问候也没有!!!"

女孩的妈妈~

也没有说话了~

其实~女孩心里~

还有一番话想要对妈妈说~

可是又不敢开口~

<<妈~你常说我不定性~

这是不是因为我在家是排行最小的?

所以你永远觉得我长不大~

又是不是我在家里常常笑着脸~

所以你觉得我什么都不在乎??

不止是姐姐有压力~

我也会有的~

为什么我和姐姐吵架时~

你总是说是我的错~

说姐姐有压力~要我让她~

妈~我也是有压力的~

我也是会崩溃的~

只是你看不见~

因为我最想当你们心目中的开心果~

可是近年我都笑不出了~

因为我很彷徨~

我很犹豫自己的未来~

你可不可以不要常常都听姐姐的??

可不可以听听我的??

因为路是我的~

小时候~

爸妈把路铺给我~

我觉得很幸福~很庆幸~

觉得这是好路~

可是长大了~

路还是操纵在你们手里~

我会觉得很辛苦~

未来是一条又长又暗的路~

你常常说~

我的字写得很丑~

可是你有没有想过~

当初~

你只教了我捉笔~

却没有教我技巧呢??

那么~我的字丑~

你能完全怪我吗??

我知道你是爱我的~

可是~

在我需要的时候~

你能不能~

支持我??

我这次的选择~

是我人生路途中~

重要的选择~

我在乎你的话~

因为~

我在乎你~>>

A boring HOLIDAY +.+

2009-10-17T05:49:00.000-07:00

Today is DEEPAVALI~

Happy DEEPAVALI to all my frenz^^

Haiz~

Stay at home all day~

My aunt ask us to hav dinner v her in Sunway Pyramid~

But my mum said she's lazy~

So~

All of us stay at home n watch TV~ Surfing~

Oh my GOD!!!

I'm damn boring now~

N no mood to study~

Keep playing HAPPY AQUARIUM in facebook all the day~~

haha~

My Fishy very cute de lexh~~

Go n rate my tank ba~

If u got play tis game~

haha^^TQ~~

Shopping Day^^

2009-10-15T05:24:00.000-07:00

Today go shopping v Dear~

A happy shopping day~

haha~

He bought me.....

Skin Care..

Heels

Sandals~

Shorts~

And we watch movie too~

Far Cry~
In Time Square~~Premium Class~

So nice~hehe^^

Seminar Day~

2009-10-12T06:29:00.000-07:00

Yesterday i go to Seminar V Ida~

We make lot of fun thr~~

haha~

OOPSSS~

I think we take too much photos~

HAha

Exam~Exam~exam...........Moody~~~~~

2009-10-08T23:35:00.000-07:00

I'm very tired now yesterday i sleep at 2.00a.m

N wake up at 4.30a.m.

Yeap~U r rite~

I spend all my time to study History~@.@

Study untill sot jor~

But still can't remember all of it~

Tis is 1 of the reason y i feel so moody~

At the end i GIVE UP!!

And keep kachao my fren~~

Tis mayb annoyed her~haha~

Haih~

Just now~

When i saw my Math (UEC) and History paper~

I shocked at it for few seconds~

It's very easy!!!!

But i dunnoe how to do~T,T

A bitz bitz regret tat my lazinesssss and moody too cause i din study all of it~

But sometimes laziness can help to relax~

>.<

Death of my dog very upset me~

It's unbelievable tat he's gone~

It's silence in my house when day turns to night~

A bit weird~Perhaps~

I still not adapt to live without my dear Max~

Take good care of urself, boy~

Do miss u all the time.....

Muackz...

3rd day~

2009-10-07T17:47:00.000-07:00

今天是第三天了~
终于有点头绪是谁做的了~
可是没有证据~

刚刚我和爸爸到后面半山那里探望你~
你知道吗?

前几天看你还好好的~
还很皮~
真的很难接受~
被埋葬在后山的是你~
希望你可以快点投胎~
不要再做狗了~
就算要做狗~
也要做个富贵狗~
知道吗??
我爱你~

刚刚去后山~
被蚊子叮到整身都是~
痒死我了>.<

我终于~接受了~大家可不可以为它哀悼??

2009-10-06T18:14:00.000-07:00

我终于接受到他已经不在了~

看着他以前的照片~

零碎的录影片段~

这一切一切都已是过去式了~

ROGER说得对~

养宠物~

最怕是跟他别离~

因为~这真的是太快了~

在听到这消息~

我根本来不急反应~

只是为它写BLOG~

隔了一天我终于接受到了~

Dear~ I love you forever~Ever~

2009-10-06T02:07:00.000-07:00

今天早上~

我出门时~

如常的摸一摸我的狗~~MAX~才上学~

怎么也想不到~

这竟是我给它最后一次的疼爱~

它于2006年9月16日出世~

2009年10月06日离开了~

享年~2年一个月~

由种种症状~

如吐白沫~不停乱撞~乱翻~

死后牙肉变黑~

它并非自然逝世~也不是病死~

而是中毒身亡~

在我住的区域~

既TAMAN PERTAMA~

这已不是第一宗住家狗被毒死了...

所以~

各位朋友~

请留意自身安全~以防万一~

其实~

我感到很无奈~

我第一只狗~DOLLY~JIWAWA DOG~

它是被其它大狗咬死的~

它被咬的那一刻~

我不在它身边~

当家人送它去医院抢救时~

我也不在它身边~

它走的时候~

我也不在他身边~

它陪了我9年~

当它最需要有人在它身边的时候~

我都不在~

到了这次~

也不例外~

放学回到家~

想和它玩玩~

怎知~

爸爸告诉我它死了~

我还以为爸爸在开玩笑~

我就到外面找它~

我爸爸就告诉我~

它是被毒死的..

我只是看着铁链~愣了~

我不知道怎么形容~

心很痛~可是哭不出来~

MAX~ I LOVE YOU~ I MISS YOU~~

Exam Month~~

2009-10-05T05:27:00.000-07:00

Huu..
Juz finish Trial Exam~
But should hav start to prepare Final Exam~
Wat a boring skul life!!
My P.Moral Subject juz score 37~
Although i learn all the Nilai and Definisi~
I juz wrote one word wrong~
N i get a big big cross X .....

N my Chinese Subject!!!!
Shit!!!!!
Paper 2 is damn difficult~~
I dun even noe wat am i writting~~

Haiz...
Nothing to do now~
No mood to study~
History got lotza thingzzz to study....
SienzZzZzZz...

Tis Sunday got seminar in Sunway~~
Excited for it~^^

A happy day

2009-08-09T04:35:00.000-07:00

Sunday~
A busy day~
Tuition from 8.30a.m till 10.30~
Proceed at 12.30 till 3.00p.m~
But tuition with frenzz~
Make Lotzzza of fun~

During lunch time~
I hav had a curry mee~
Oh my godness!!!!!
So spicy!!
I can't stand for it!!!
I drink a tin of 100 plus sekali gus~
My tear keep droping down~~

~About Sweet Cherries's Life~

日本--青木原树海

CHECK OUT WHAT BERRY YOU ARE TODAY !

Getting mad........

Did you meet ghost before???????

My day

Let's have fun ^^

We should Love ourselves more~

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I love this song....

Just Ignore me.. I'm too bored~

Do u miss My daughther -- Nana???

Shopping with sis =' )

28/08/10 Family dinner

Shakira~She's so beautiful =' )

Finally.................

Dear~ Happy 2nd Anniversary~

Owh~~~ You know??? I love her voice!!!!!!!!

Unknown - Rebel [New Demo 2010 for Leona Lewis]

Unknown - Rain & Thunder [New Demo 2010 for Leona Lewis]

Leona Lewis - Perfection [New Song 2010]

Leona Lewis - How Everything You Are [New Song 2010]

Leona Lewis - Crying Is Beautiful [New Song 2010]

Unknown - Rebel [New Demo 2010 for Leona Lewis]

Time Heals Broken Hearts - Leona Lewis (New Demo 2010)

Owh! I love Colbie's songs =' )

Colbie Caillat - The Fabric of Our Lives (FULL SONG!)

Ke$ha - N-N-N-Neva Baby (NEW SONG 2010 FULL VERSION)

Bruno Mars - Just The Way You Are Official Lyrics Video (HD)

Busy monthSSSSSSSSSSS is coming....

Girls and boys~~~~ Do you know?????

She's back........ (part 2)

She's back...........................................

Weeeeeehhhhhhhhheeeeee~~~

♥TSUYAGLA IRON♥

My Babe Baby -- Ida Chen

无题~

I'd tried my best~

Ada learning purple smoky eyes~

Have you ever seen thisssssss???

Shopping Day~ Weehee^^

02/06/10 Outing v Boyz N Galz~

What can i do???!!

Happy Day?? Boring Day???

Forbidden Dream~

有时候~

Over Persisted~

SPM's OVER!!!!!!!

女孩的故事~

A boring HOLIDAY +.+

Shopping Day^^

Seminar Day~

Exam~Exam~exam...........Moody~~~~~

3rd day~

我终于~接受了~大家可不可以为它哀悼??

Dear~ I love you forever~Ever~

Exam Month~~

A happy day

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